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Study study study! Never stop! Strive Harder! become a computer pro! Don't stop! Just spamming my deviantart :D

So yeah, my love story is over. It's about time I stay put and focus. Trials are just 2 weeks away, and I know it, I'm not very well prepared. However, I've learned to pick up confidence. By using fear and target I'm going to achieve greater heights. For the sake not to lose to someone in exams, I'll have to do my best. Now, for the bad side is... I'm actually lack of focus. I just can't sit tight and long reading. My mind will just wander around, flying from places to places thinking about happy, sad and even embarrassing moments. Hopefully I still can do well. I know some people can study so crazy but I just can't do that, at such, let'

It's painful. I know that I like her very much. How sad, it's just not the right time. Once again, I questioned myself. Why in the world this happen at such time? In actual fact, I've no plans to fall in love with anyone after some rational thinking few years back. Sadly, it just had to happened. For that, I blamed myself. I tortured, tormented, and mentally abused myself by crushing this feeling with force. It was all for the sake for good. In other words, I forced myself to drop this love sensation. It's very torturing. I still don't understand if I'm doing the right thing. So what did I do to torture myself? Easy. I forced myself not to